I don't know what to write, other than we are besides ourselves with sadness. I delivered the babies last night, James at 9:43 p.m. and Jake at 9:55 p.m. The identical twins brothers were created together, delivered together and died together. Every bit of them was perfect. What caused their death seems to have something to do with an umbilical cord.
We, of course, are so very sad, but please let me take a moment to thank EACH AND EVERYONE of you for your thoughts, prayers and comments. Your words of encouragement and prayers have helped not just Brian and myself, but every member of our entire family and our friends who are grieving right beside us. Thank you for taking the time to show us how much you care.
Please pray for our strength
you and your family (including your twins) are in my thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry for your loss.
Posted by: Megan | February 27, 2008 at 11:21 AM
There are no words I can say to ease the pain you must be feeling. I am reminded of something Adrian Rogers once said, "We can only take comfort in the knowledge that this is not God's final plan." My heart goes out to you and your entire family and I am praying that God's grace will be sufficient.
Posted by: Karen (Simply A Musing Blog) | February 27, 2008 at 11:24 AM
I am praying for you and your family so you may find the strength needed to overcome this painful time in your lives. God Bless you all!
Posted by: Monica | February 27, 2008 at 11:33 AM
Dear Beth and your family,
You have been in our thoughts and prayers since the moment we heard of your loss. Your words about your beautiful boys have touched our hearts and souls. James and Jake are very loved little boys who will live in all of us forever. Your strength and courage at this time of sorrow is testimony to your great love as a mother... and as we see by the outpouring of love and support, the way you have touched so, so many of us. Please know how very deeply we all care...
With love,
Audrey, Jane & Sharon - Pinks & Blues
Posted by: Audrey - Pinks & Blues | February 27, 2008 at 11:34 AM
I can't even imagine.
Hugs, prayers and gosh, just everything good to you and yours.
I'm so sorry for your loss.
Posted by: Leanne | February 27, 2008 at 11:37 AM
I know I haven't "known" you long, but I have still had you in my thoughts and prayers for the past couple of days. I am so sorry. I wish there was something I could do!
Posted by: Tirzah | February 27, 2008 at 11:41 AM
You have such strength and courage Beth and I know this journey has been a tough one to say the least. You are surrounded by so many loving friends and family who care deeply about you and your family. I pray that time will heal your pain and bring you comfort. You will continue to be in my prayers. Much love and hugs to you!
Posted by: Lynette | February 27, 2008 at 11:54 AM
Again, Beth...I am so very sorry for your loss. Know there are so many people praying for you and your family.
Posted by: gretchen | February 27, 2008 at 11:57 AM
Beth-
My heart is so very heavy for all of you. All of you have been in my thoughts constantly for these past few days and I wish you, Brian, Ariel, Racecar and your family peace and continued strength.
All my love,
CE
Posted by: crookedeyebrow | February 27, 2008 at 11:57 AM
You are so strong! God Bless you every single second. You're my hero!
Posted by: Bloggygirl | February 27, 2008 at 11:58 AM
I just came over from Musing of a Housewife a few days ago and have not had you and your family out of my thoughts longer than a few hours since. I understand. I get it. I lost two babies before our son.
Take refuge in your Heavenly Father. Crawl into His lap and let Him hold you while you grieve for your angel-babies.
Lifting you and your family in constant love and prayer in Oklahoma.
Posted by: Stacey | February 27, 2008 at 11:58 AM
YOu really don't know me, other than through blogging and then, not so much... but please know that my family and i are praying for you, brian, ariel and racecar... and james and jake too, what beautiful names...
hang in there and be strong... you can do all things through Christ who gives you strength.
Posted by: Heather @ Desperately Seeking Sanity | February 27, 2008 at 12:03 PM
I just came upon your blog by accident but I am so very sorry for your loss. ((((Big hugs))))
Posted by: mitchypoo | February 27, 2008 at 12:08 PM
Beth..I am not part of your inner circle...but, I read you religiously....I don't even know where to begin..except to say I sit here and cry for you, for those two beautiful little ones and your family. Nothing I can say will ease your pain, just know that this fellow hoosier as an ache in her heart for you...I am praying for you. I am so very sorry.
Dixie
Posted by: Dixiechick | February 27, 2008 at 12:15 PM
Again, I am so sorry about the loss of Jake and James~what sweet names for them! There are no words to say. We are all praying for you. God is big and He is here.
Posted by: Jen | February 27, 2008 at 12:18 PM
Oh Beth. I am so very sorry. Strength has been what I've been calling out for you. And love. We all love you so very much.
Love,
Steph
Posted by: Adventures In Babywearing | February 27, 2008 at 12:20 PM
Beth, you're in my prayers.
Posted by: Lori - Queen of Dirty Laundry | February 27, 2008 at 12:22 PM
Oh, Beth. I don't know what to say. I don't have any eloquent words of comfort and I can't begin to understand what you and Brian are feeling right now. Just know that I've been thinking about all of you and praying for you every minute since Monday, and I hope you can feel it. I've loved these babies in your belly from the beginning (over decoy glasses of wine!), and have loved being a part of every step of this journey with you. Knowing I'll meet them one day in Heaven is so comforting to me. Still praying and sending love for you all.
Love,
Sarah
Posted by: milk&honey | February 27, 2008 at 12:23 PM
i am so sorry for your loss. my heart is breaking for you.
Posted by: chickadee | February 27, 2008 at 12:26 PM
Dear Beth and family,
It is such a sad time and words can't express what we all feel, but just know that James and Jake are sheltered safe in the arms of God. I pray for your continuted strength, mind and body.
Posted by: Rhonda (Mimi) | February 27, 2008 at 12:28 PM
Beth,
I'm praying that you and your family get through this hard time. Even though you may never understand why your sweet baby boys, James and Jake were taken. May you find peace at some point knowing they are now watching over all of you.
You're in my prayers,
Amy
Posted by: amy | February 27, 2008 at 12:30 PM
Beth, My prayers are with you and yours and also with your hearts. What got me through was knowing that God is sovereign. While this is new and shocking to you, God has known forever. He will bring you comfort and peace. While the spot in your heart reserved for these babies will always love them, you will live and live life abundantly.
Posted by: NerdMom | February 27, 2008 at 12:30 PM
Praying, praying, praying for you Beth.
Posted by: J. Fergie | February 27, 2008 at 12:31 PM
Beth,
Another big set of hugs to you and your family.
I love the names you chose for your sons.
Again, I'm so sorry for your loss.
I think I'd read your blog only a couple of times before yesterday. I hope you don't mind if I hang out here, even though the circumstances of my "finding you" are less than wonderful. Reading some old posts makes me think I'd like it here quite a lot.
And I LOVE the picture you posted of your husband (I assume) holding your hand yesterday. I know you'll be glad for that photo, and for any others you might have taken...
More hugs...
Rebecca
Posted by: Rebecca | February 27, 2008 at 12:33 PM
I still have no words. I'm trying to make sense of your loss. It is so senseless. I'm certainly praying for you. and the boys have beautiful names.
Posted by: elle | February 27, 2008 at 12:41 PM