The Sun

If you've come here looking for a post about how sad I am today, I'm afraid you will have to search the archives from the past two weeks to find what you are looking for.  Today, for the third day in a row, the sun in shining and I have to believe it is having a positive effect on me.  Between the not so cold weather, time, my house being disgustingly clean, the sun, the support of all of you, my friends and my family and quite honestly, my pal, Prozac, today feels better.

Even though Brian went back to work today and even though Racecar did not go to school today because he has a fever, TODAY, or at least RIGHT NOW, things feel good and I want to roll around in the goodness.

So, I'm going to show you some pictures and take you through some happy things.  I think we all deserve that.  Don't you?

This is a picture taken this morning of the kids in our bed, watching TV.  Between the kids and the stuffed animals, you can see there is limited room for Mom.  So, up I went to make coffee and take pictures.

Little did you know, last weekend we traveled to Louisville for one night to visit my sister and her family.  It was her son's third birthday, so we wanted to celebrate with him and we did.  Throughout this entire ordeal of losing James and Jake, my sister has been a solid rock for me to lean on.  She has gone out of her way to do incredible things for us and these two quilts are the perfect example of what kind of person she is.  She and another angel of a woman, worked on these two precious items that I love with all of my heart and soul.  My sister (Sarah) stayed up late and worked so hard to get these done before our visit and somehow she did.  They are made up of various meaningful fabrics, the stripe fabric is from one of Racecar's shirts when he was a baby and another fabric is from one of Ariel's sleepers that she wore.  I wish you could feel how soft these are or smell them, they smell so good.  I have been sleeping with them each night. I love them, when I look at them I think about so many things, but mostly I think about the thoughtfulness and generosity of my sister.

This is my sister's daughter.  She's so fun and so pretty.

This is a necklace that Brian and I ordered for me, I love to wear this necklace, it's so special to me.  It's from Planetjill, I love the quality and it shipped quickly.

Here are some pictures of Racecar taken this morning.  This is Racecar with a fever.  Can you imagine him without a fever?  He's an amazing child.

And finally, our Ariel.  Our warm, loving and caring Ariel.  She had her kindergarten physical yesterday, it's hard to believe she's so old.  She's such a special little girl.

My parents, oh my parents have been so good to us.  They have been coming over every night after work and having dinner with us, they have been playing with the kids and bringing over my favorite Coldstone Creamery ice cream, they've just been here for us.  We are so grateful for them and the time they have been spending with us.  I don't think they'll ever know how much it has helped us cope.

And finally, if I could take a picture of all of you, with your prayers and your positive thoughts and your comments, I would, of every single one of you.  I just hope my words can paint a vivid enough picture for you of how amazing I think you all are.  Thank you for caring and understanding and for sending your love.  I can feel it.  From each and everyone of you.

Comments

[Jill]

I am so glad you are starting to feel better.

I LOVE the necklace and since my name is Jill, I feel it is my duty to check out PlanetJill ASAP!

The quilts are precious! You are so blessed to have your sister (I'm sure you know that).

Take care =)

[Rhonda (Mimi)]

I am so glad the sun is shining for you today. Those quilts are amazing. Such wonderful keep sakes. Love the necklace too. I will have to check that site out. You have been so blessed to be surrounded by such loving people. Racecar looks like the fever doesn't phase him. Ariel is precious. What a great day! Today is my grand-daughter, Abby's 1st Birthday...

[Rebecca]

Yay! I'm so glad today is a good day. I hope you'll start to have more good days than bad ones. :)

[neicy]

It's so great to hear that you are having a good day today!!! Those quilts are beautiful, you sister did an amazing job. I have a sister like that. You're still in my prayers and I hope that racecar feels better soon!!! (lol, or at least the fever goes away, he looks like he feels just fine!)

[milk&honey]

Beth, the sun has broken through the clouds for you. You are an amazing woman.

p.s. That picture of Racecar kills me! I'd like to dance with him, please.

[Thea @ I'm a Drama Mama]

I'm so glad that at least for today, the clouds are beginning to break...

And those pictures of Racecar made me laugh out loud.

We registered Jake for Kindergarten last week...it's unbelievable, isn't it??

[J. Fergie]

hi beth!

i'm so glad today is a good day. what lovely photos. your family is so special.

[crookedeyebrow]

Although I can't see the pictures, you sound (read) so refreshing.

Nothing but love for you lady, nothing but love.

~CE

[Adventures In Babywearing]

The sun has been shining here- I've pulled back the curtains and am soaking it in. These pictures are just fabulous. And the quilts- precious.

Steph

[jenny]

oh, i am SO glad that sun has been shining on you. i'm glad you are able to soak in a little goodness today.

[JenniferH]

Hi BH! I love, LOVE, LOVE the quilts, the beautiful necklace, and all the fabulous pictures. Your entire family is so amazing, and I am so thankful that you have their love, strength, energy and support to help you through the hard times. You are a true gift to this world, and I'm so proud to know you. I pray for lots more sunshine to come... Love, JH

[Susan]

For a "not sad" post...I sure did cry alot!

Still praying for you guys. Happy the sun is finally shining a bit there.

Hugs.

[New Diva on the Blog]

I'm so glad the sun has begun shining for real and in your heart. What great pictures and the quilts are extremely precious.

[Angela]

Its a breath of fresh wonderful air to see you happy again, if only for a moment. Enjoy your day and know you're loved.

[Tirzah]

I'm glad you have some sunshine, again!

What a sweet sister you have. Those are great quilts!

I love the pics of Racecar! He looks like a really fun kid!

[Kelly @ Love Well]

There's a sweet hope running through this post, Beth. May the moments of sunshine get more numerous and closer together each day. Spring is both physical and spiritual, isn't it?

[mandy]

I am so happy to hear all of this. Peace.

I love those quilts, they are amazing. I want your sister. Or just the quilts. ;)

[Audrey - Pinks & Blues]

Beth,

We think of you ever single day.

Every single day.

You are truly such a woman of grace... and today's post... seeing those beautiful faces... it made me smile. Ariel is absolutely beautiful. And Racecar... you can just tell his personality in those photos! What a little man! So cute.

Your sister seems like such an amazing woman. There is a bond between sisters - I know this to be true - and to see that Sarah is there for you, no questions asked... just to love you and do what she can to make you smile. That's an amazing gift.

Much love,
Audrey
Pinks & Blues

[Shantel]

Your sister seems like an amazing person. The bond betweens sisters is something not everyone gets to experience. I am so glad to read a post from you that is uplifting. The sun does make a difference in all of our worlds and I have to believe this is just a way for you to heal a little more. I love the quilts. You have been such an amazing person through all of this. I am so glad you had your parents, family and friends to help you through this difficult time. Keep your chin up and let's just hope that each day gets a little easier.

All my love,
Shantel

[Autumn Dahlia]

So happy to see this post from you, Beth! Sunny skies can do wonders :)

[Bloggygirl]

YOU GO GIRL! I told you that you're my hero! God bless you! You made my day smile!

[Megan (FriedOkra)]

Oh what an answer to prayer this post was! I'm so glad you're getting relief from the oppressive emotions of the past weeks. And so thankful, so immensely thankful you have family and friends as wonderful as yours are and have been to y'all. Keep shining, sun! Many hugs -

M

[jodi@blog-o-licious]

what a beautiful post - the kindness and love from your family is amazing.

and the quilts are perfect - reminds me of quilts my grandmother made with scraps of fabric from our favourite outfits.

and the necklace - love.

[Beth/Mom2TwoVikings]

Wonderful to see the tide beginning to turn for you...choosing life, choosing sun, choosing to remember the good! Atta girl, sweetie. One day, hour, or minute at a time!

[Carolyn]

OH this post just made me cry, not tears of sadness but tears of joy for you! I am so happy to hear that each day is a little brighter and that the sun is shinning in you again. What a wonderful wonderful post this was. Your children are beautiful! The things your sister and parents have done for you, are just above and beyond. How wonderful for you that you have them and all of us who are just so thrilled that you are sharing all of this with each of us.
Continued joy and happiness to you and your family.