I wanted to write a quick note to tell you all that I did, in fact, purchase the trees. And while the trees are incredible, the experience I had purchasing the trees, was not. In fact, in the end, I wished that I did not buy the trees from where I bought them, at all. Even though it seemed as though they were meant to be.
The story is so long and detailed that I wonder if I would even be able to properly write about the entire experience, but I will try, although not right now. The experience made me very sad and not just because I was purchasing trees trying to honor our sons who are not with us, but because the person I dealt with was, well, not a nice person.
In the end, the trees are planted, my mom and I worked on the landscaping all day long and everything looks wonderful. Our day yesterday was good, memorable, significant. Your e-mails, comments, the cards, the flowers and other amazing things that people in our lives did for us yesterday were beautiful and meant so much. Although yesterday was a day of such sadness, the sun rays were beautiful and plentiful. And they felt so, so good.
I'm sorry you had to deal with a not nice person as part of this experience. I'm glad you got your trees planted and that you felt goodness from the sunshine.
Posted by: Mrs. Bubba | July 22, 2008 at 02:03 AM
It's always a bummer when you have to deal with someone like that. I work with the public all day and know that my attitude towards them is what will make them want to come back again. I'm sure this person did not even stop to think of how his / her attitude would affect you, and most likely you were not the only person they treated like that throughout their day. It's a shame things like that happen.
On a brighter note, you did get your trees and they are planted. I cannot wait to see pictures.
Posted by: Angie | July 22, 2008 at 06:54 AM
Thinking of you!!!!!! Hope you have a better day today.
Please e-mail me your new address...
Hugs!!
Shantel
Posted by: Shantel | July 22, 2008 at 06:59 AM
I'm so sorry that happened, but the important thing is that the trees are in the ground!
Thinking of you always...
Posted by: Thea @ I'm a Drama Mama | July 22, 2008 at 07:25 AM
Hopefully, in the end, the meaning of the beautiful trees will linger far longer than the rude person you had to deal with.
Prayers, Beth. Feel that sunshine.
Posted by: Kelly @ Love Well | July 22, 2008 at 08:54 AM
Ohh, I am sorry it went that way. In the end though, I am glad you have your trees. Tell us who that mean person was! We'll go getum!
Posted by: mandy | July 22, 2008 at 09:12 AM
Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry that the day you had was 'tainted' that way, but I *am* glad that you have the trees: I felt so sure yesterday that God meant you to have them. Just as James and Jake will live forever in every breath of God's generous rain and healing wind I hope these trees will grow and flourish in your garden. Send pictures, soon!!!!!
Posted by: erika | July 22, 2008 at 09:33 AM
BUMMER.. I'm so sorry the experiance wasn't a good one.. That just sucks..
It sounds like you're doing "okay".. stay strong.. keep your head up. Can't wait to hear more from you... we miss you!! :)
Posted by: Ryley | July 22, 2008 at 09:47 AM
Thinking about you:)
Posted by: sunshine | July 22, 2008 at 09:54 AM
Mean people suck. I hope the sun continues to shine on you. ;o)
Posted by: Melissa | July 22, 2008 at 10:03 AM
I think you need to tell me all the details so I can go beat some tree selling people up. Or send them a letter or something. Who was it?!?!
Steph
Posted by: Adventures In Babywearing | July 22, 2008 at 10:09 AM
I am so sorry that you had a not good experience with buying trees. I want to know if it was where I said- I will not go there either.
Jen
Posted by: Not Just Any Jen | July 22, 2008 at 10:14 AM
FIDDLESTICKS! Grrrrrrrr, that makes me angry! Makes me want to call them! Well...at least the trees are in your hands now. They will be better taken care of with you :) You SAVED THEM! :) I can't wait to see PICS! I know the trees will bring you years and years of enjoyment and will always be something that will remind you of your precious boys. A forever keepsake. Now...share pics! I'm longing to see them!
Posted by: Nicole | July 22, 2008 at 10:20 AM
I am so sorry the experience was not good when buying the trees. That can make them seem bittersweet.
I am glad that you and your mom were together yesterday, celebrating and remembering. That is so important. I threw a prayer up for you Sunday, and hoped it was going ok.
Posted by: Kellyn | July 22, 2008 at 10:30 AM
I think planting the trees is a lovely living memorial. Hope you're having a good day!
Posted by: The Dumbest Smart Girl You Know | July 22, 2008 at 11:33 AM
The owners of Chesterton Feed Store are our next door neighbors and we purchase all of our cat food from them, as well as any landscaping stuff we need (which hasn't been much thus far). If you ever need more landscaping stuff you should check them out, the employees have always been super nice and friendly, and carry stuff out for you.
Can't wait to see some pics of the trees, and don't feel obligated to relive a crappy moment, just leave it behind you and move on.
Jen
Posted by: Mommy Instincts | July 22, 2008 at 12:07 PM
You realize you have an entire blogging community who's ready to kick some but about now, right?
Sorry the purchase of the trees wasn't that great but glad to hear that your landscaping is done and that you are happy. What a wonderful symbol of your boys...
Posted by: Elaine | July 22, 2008 at 12:09 PM
NO tree hugging love from them?
hmm
we got your back.
I hope all went well and I can't wait to see photos of the landscaping.
Posted by: crookedeyebrow | July 22, 2008 at 01:51 PM
So glad you got your trees and so sorry that salesperson sucks. All I can say is KARMA!
Posted by: Michele | July 22, 2008 at 02:00 PM
You did rescue the trees. They had been waiting for you. All the "signs" pointed to James & Jake wanting you to take care of them... Rabindranath Tagore wrote, "Trees are the earth's endless effort to speak to the listening heaven."
Now the trees have a place from which to speak, and heaven has a place from which to listen.
xo - Sharon
Posted by: Sharon - MomGenerations | July 22, 2008 at 02:59 PM
You didn't let that employee steal your joy, Beth, or mess with what you knew was meant to be. And because you held firm and did what you were supposed to, you have 2 special trees as beautiful remembrances of James and Jake in your very backyard. I am so glad they are in your ground and have you as your nurturer. We can't wait to see pictures.
Posted by: Amy F. | July 22, 2008 at 03:47 PM
oh so sorry to hear that the experience was not pleasant with the employee....put that behind you and enjoy your wonderful work in your garden of remembrance!! can't wait to see picts....
Posted by: Kari | July 22, 2008 at 09:39 PM
Beth, All those signs had to mean it was the right thing to do. I hope you reached out and touched that person in a way you will never know.
I sincerely hope you can leave that memory behind and remember James and Jake in your yard instead.
Posted by: Nikki | July 22, 2008 at 10:56 PM
I gave you an award today (which you can feel free to completely ignore :)) at http://tarasviewoftheworld.blogspot.com/2008/07/linky-love.html
Posted by: Tara R | July 22, 2008 at 10:56 PM
You are right. It is not fair. It's hard to imagine the boys being in a better place then in your arms. You are such a great mom and some one I look up to. I hope one day the pain won't be there as much, but all the memories of your pregnacy will be.
xoxo
Posted by: Misti | July 23, 2008 at 09:32 AM