This past week has been a very interesting week for me. Tuesday night, I had dinner with some of my best friends, three of whom are pregnant and due any day now. Although knowing they are pregnant and seeing them is another painful reminder of our loss, seeing them, their glows, the anticipation in their eyes is just so exciting. I can't wait to meet these little babies. Between you and me, I think they've met James and Jake. But that's our little secret.
Thursday, as I'm sure you all remember, was wonderful.
I just wanted to take a second to thank you all for being there with me every single day. I know you all think that this blog is just a blog that gets traffic and that's that. But I am just a dirty jean and yoga pant wearing (even though there ain't no yoga goin' on) real person, who sits here, sometimes with no bra on, surrounded by cereal stuck to my floor and doing what I can to get through the day, one day at a time, trying to be the best person I can be. I have this blog because it's good therapy for me, it's fun to write, but also, I love hearing from all of you.
I've said it before, but I have no idea how I became so lucky to be able to have EACH AND EVERYONE of you come to my blog and read and sometimes comment. (you know I love comments! You're my friends, I love hearing from you!)
Last week I was having an I LOVE MY READERS moment (which happens all of the time) with Brian and I said "I just wish I could meet every single one of them." Even those of you who have never commented, but you come daily to check in and read, sometimes cry, sometimes laugh. This week your comments and e-mails have been so supportive and HILARIOUS. (seriously...you guys are hysterical.) I mean, Ashley is leaving comments about Seal's package and Sharon is leaving the most profound, amazing, beautiful, loving comment about our trees and honoring MY ENTIRE FAMILY with her words. But each comment is filled with love, no matter how simple. I even said to Brian that I wish I could host a live chat and get to know everyone. That's why I love it when you guys share things with me, I get to learn about YOU. I love that.
Anyway, I just wanted to say thank you. Thank you for reading and coming back, for your words, your prayers, your smiles, your love. I feel it, more than you could ever imagine.
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You may be seeing some changes here this weekend. I am changing I Should Be Folding Laundry over to wordpress (finally) and Heather and I (Heather, who I have MAD love for) are working to make this blog a little bit neater, more beautiful and easier to navigate.
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I don't know if you've noticed, but I do not do much blog surfing, not as much as I would like. But one day this week, I took a few minutes to go read and I found this post by Anissa. It's a must read. Tell her Beth sent you.
Have a great weekend.
We love you, Beth.
Posted by: Thea @ I'm a Drama Mama | September 06, 2008 at 02:17 PM
No need to thank us! We should thank you for constantly keeping us entertained. I love your blog because you are so real. You don't hesitate to let it all hang out and you are hysterical some times, lol. That's really refreshing. Good luck with the wordpad switch. I've been doing my best to move over to moveable type and it's complicated, lol. I may try wordpress instead as it's a little easier to navigate. I can't wait to see it. :D
Posted by: Jen | September 06, 2008 at 03:27 PM
We love you too. If you weren't you, we wouldn't be stopping by daily. Hope that makes sense!
Posted by: nottryingforaboy | September 06, 2008 at 03:45 PM
And WE thank YOU Beth. For being so honest and open about your feelings, and your life. It is a joy to read your blog, and it helps me out in some way everytime I come here. We love you back!
Isn't the internet great? 10 years ago, we would never have "known" each other!
Posted by: Christy | September 06, 2008 at 04:18 PM
You know I have to say, I love reading your blog but also, this is one of the rare places where I usually hang around to read most if not all of the comments too. I love your readers as well! Thanks Beth, for having such a wonerfully welcoming blog that does feel like it's own community.
Elaine
Posted by: Elaine | September 06, 2008 at 04:40 PM
you are so sweet :) We keep coming back here reading, crying, laughing, nodding in agreement and getting pissed off at stupid evil people because of one reason. You.
You are a treasure and THAT is what keeps bringing us back here every day. Oh...and I bet I speak for most all of your readers when I say I think we would all like to meet you in person too. Keep on keepin on Beth!
Posted by: Ashley @ mrs007.net | September 06, 2008 at 04:52 PM
Oh I totally know how you feel with your readers. Don't you just wish you could have a "Folding Laundry" bloggy meetup? You know it would be the best.
Posted by: designher momma | September 06, 2008 at 05:20 PM
While lacking in comments the past little while, I still read and pray for you daily. You are such a huge inspriration for so many people.
Posted by: Kellyn | September 06, 2008 at 06:00 PM
Awwww..what a sweet post!! I love ya girlie!
Posted by: Mrs. Schmitty | September 06, 2008 at 08:46 PM
You rock! ;o) Have a great weekend!
Posted by: Melissa | September 06, 2008 at 09:34 PM
Beth-
What a beautiful post. We all love you to girl....We will hopefully meet soon....
Posted by: Shantel | September 06, 2008 at 09:50 PM
You have some wonderful readers! They have loved on me all day. Thank you for sharing them with me.
Posted by: Anissa@Hope4Peyton | September 06, 2008 at 09:58 PM
I've been reading your posts in google reader and realized I haven't clicked over to comment in awhile. Just wanted you to know I'm still reading and I'm still praying.
Posted by: Tara R. | September 06, 2008 at 10:58 PM
yay for a new blog!!! and you're so awesome... it goes both ways chicka!
Posted by: Heather @ Desperately Seeking Sanity | September 07, 2008 at 12:41 AM
Oh Beth, I think the same thing. I feel that this pregnancy, that Ivy, in a very supernatural way has a connection with your James & Jake. Not only from my heart to hers, but just in some unexplainable way.
Steph
Posted by: Adventures In Babywearing | September 07, 2008 at 05:01 AM
You know why I come here, Beth? because you are REAL. We love you!
Posted by: Mary C | September 07, 2008 at 07:04 AM
You are thanking us readers, but we should be thanking you. Thank you for your openness about your life. I come back every day since you lost your precious boys. Mostly to check on you to see if you are OK. I never comment. I am a lurker in these halls of the blog world. But know I am clicking on everyday and thinking about you and your boys.
PS- That story you wrote about the trees....gosh I hate that woman and trust me, if I am ever in Indiana...I won't stop there!!!
Posted by: trish | September 07, 2008 at 03:57 PM
Thank YOU for constantly reminding me what is important.
Posted by: Megan | September 07, 2008 at 06:00 PM
Is yoga pants and no bra not a good fashion statement? Because I think it should be, and I swear I'm not saying that just because I happen to be wearing that EXACT outfit right now. No cereal stuck to me, but there are some odd stains on the black tank top that may be dried milk.
Posted by: Erin | September 07, 2008 at 06:19 PM
Oooh! I can't wait to see your new home!
Posted by: Musings of a Housewife | September 07, 2008 at 08:03 PM